my head is a mess from the time i wake up until the time i go to sleep
and its not a terrible mess but its not a good mess either. my throat is drippy.
I need sunshine and quiet but there is not time for that when you tell yourself
you need to do big things and do them quickly. I long for vasts of time with no
responsibilities and whats funny is I create my life exactly how it is. I add my own
stress. It is no ones fault but mine. because there is so much I want to do. so very
much. you know? that I could do.
so Im going to make the videos into dvds to sell instead.
easy easy something i already know how to do. I have them
outlined and ready to go. exactly how to teach you to make
a mixed media pretty girl on wood painting. yes. you order
the dvd then i send it to your house. what could be easier than
that. then, end of august, i begin working on my book for lulu.com.
Because its what I want a visual orgy of suzi book love.
Dont you hate that?
when you dont feel good that voice that is terribly mean and says YOU SUCK AND
YOULL NEVER BE ANYTING! when I am sick it seems that voice is louder than I am.
ill admit...i havent read since last week. ive come to the conclusion that i MUST get audio books, there is just no time to read. oh what a boring girl ive become.