Wednesday, July 30, 2008

It aint always pretty but its true

Thee only reason I am where I am today is because of my blatant honesty, be it off color or not. I could easily become another cookie cutter and probably have huge potential at that and reach the most audience, hell I can be a cooler martha stewart, but thats not where I want to be. My art and method of teaching is infused with my life, and my life is filled with ups, downs, and contradictions. People read my blog not because Im the best artist in the world, others do what I do and do it well but I would bet that none have as loyal a following. Its an attitude I am selling, promoting, advocating, above anything else. Empowerment. Its not the clean sanitized version like youll find in polished barnes and noble books but the gritty real life shit we go through. It's feminism at its highest and that is the highest service I offer women. And that takes being as true to life as I possibly can.

When I put out there the whole B movie thing I was warned not to, that it will tarnish my image and perhaps turn some people away. But in fact, it brought them closer to me. Because Im real. I admit what I do and I do not apologize for it. I am NOT a christian fundamentalist nor do I want to pretend to be. Not that there is anything wrong with that but its not my path. I want to sleep with SHANE for petes sake. and I was a stripper for 15 years. Although I am more than these things my experiences make me who I am, and the more myself I act the more I allow others to be themselves too. and this, in my opinion, is what brings everyone here.

I really mean it when I talk about revolution.

someone said once I was a "master of marketing" and I told them Ive never marketed in my fucking life. As if my lack of hair washing and making videos in my pajamas is an elaborate plan. Im just a chick on the floor of her room talking to a video camera and pretending it is her best friend. Because I want a best friend. I want authenticity. I want to tell someone my secrets FINALLY TELL MY SECRETS, and not live a bullshit life anymore. I cant breathe with secrets in my throat.

Although I want to be out there as much as I can and let this all get as big as it possibly can I dont forsee the usual way of getting there. With the internet all has changed anyway. No longer do we need editors or publishers to see good things in us, we see them in ourselves and put our art there anyway. I dont know about you but Id LOVE to read a craft book in which they said PUT THIS FUCKING THING OVER HERE THEN ADD THE OTHER FUCKING THING TO IT and stopped the sterilized boring CRAP I see everywhere.

Why does Rachel Rae look like an airbrushed waif on magazine covers but ooh 20 lbs heavier on her TV show?

Although I invite other markets to love me I will not court them in any special way. Im not going to dumb down my message or make it easier to swallow for the quilting ladies. If they are hungry for new ideas in fabric art, for something fresh, they will listen. If not then there are countless cardboard lifeless 'crafters' out there for them to follow.

I want a new breed of art chicas. I want lesbian orgies of wild abandon ART LOVE. I want goddesses coast to coast painting in tee shirts with out a bra and if all the retreat circuits out there dont want me and my ladies SO BE IT. We will start our own little revolution out here in the corner.

Can I get a hallelujah?

Full steam ahead baby.


Tuesday, July 29, 2008

Learning how to make dingy digital backgrounds

Just this morning I said today i will DETOX no sugar and definitely no sausage and peppers that my dad would be making tonight and then by 5:30 it started with a low sugar hard candy and quickly lead to stuffing a chocolate cupcake into my mouth and washing it down with an A&W Root beer, followed by Dads lovely greazy sausage and peppers.

failed again.
I want comfort tho.
and im weak
Im weak!!

The baby snores. she snores so loud. she had diarrhea today a bit cause they all feed her bad people food at the table, that stops. now she is on chop meat and rice to bind her. the snoring is so cute tho. I must tape it. I need to make a cd of her fav songs too.

viva la gigi!
i need to make tee shirts

Monday, July 28, 2008

Always Thinking

So after the class is finished I am going to ENTER THE WORLD damn it. ha. get me a life outside of these walls. I found a local yoga place. that is first. and there is also a meet up place that does life drawing once a week I could do that, and Ive also written to them and asked if I can start up an art journal group. I think that would be an excellent idea and would fuel the you tube thing because Id have 3 dimensional people to play with YAY.

So here is to getting out of the house!

Party Girl Kit Testimonial

by Katy

"I had so much fun working on this kit. i tend to get caught up in gathering supplies and over thinking projects, sometimes to the point of not getting anything done. with the party girl a lot of the thinking was done for me and i could just let go and play. that is exactly how I looked at it too~ play. I wanted to use some of the supplies i have horded and held on to for who know how long and use them in this piece which I did. I'm naturally a kind of serious person and I find various art forms a nice release if I try not to think too hard. before the kit arrived I promised myself that i wouldn't think so much and just do, to relax and trust the process. the directions were awesome with just enough direction to make it work but not too much to make it seem too hard. in fact I had a hard time waiting for the paint to dry since I didn't want to stop and got up a few in the the middle of the night to either play some more or just look at and get inspired on what I would add next. once I was finished I was so pleased and couldn't believe that i finished it without going into over thinking overload and that I had anything to do with how it turned out. I keep looking at it and am amazed that I actually had any part to play in how it turned out. I had so much fun and I want more kits and i cant wait for the online class! thank you suzi if you lived by me I'd give you a big hug! you are my muse (well you and my cat, belle:) >^..^< katy"

and here is Katy's work:

Have a party Girl Testimonial?
email me at suziblu at gmail

Saturday, July 26, 2008

XZ!$#@@xxxGRRR(&$^#%&&!!!!! cramps

See the bed in the back? Thats the baby's new bed. pooh sleeps in it too. I can fit my ass in it as well its so damn big. fkg A I have cramps. 3 advil and 2 hours later and its better thank goodness for drugs. Better living thru chemicals I always say. I am nearly finished with Lesson 2. (just ooh 6 more to go, and editing 4 videos yeeee haaaa!) but there is nothing you cant do, you know? If you put time into it.

I gots no wisdom right now. I blew it all on the class lesson. Im afraid I wont be much good to anyone until I finish all of this work. and you know for fun right now I think Im going to spend too much money on Dover books. I deserves it. Isn't it funny how I gussy up for my videos but I look all spent and worn for my blogger girls? Sort of like the lover who puts on high heels for work but at home wears sweatpants all the time. Im sorry I dont dress for you! I know you secretly dont care tho so thats why I dont. I know you are wearing sweats too.

Thursday, July 24, 2008

Paper Lantern Finale

BTW Hollys new name is GIGI.
When she came to the rescue she had the name Prissy - which she didnt respond to. (can you imagine being 7 and not having a name?) so they called her Holly, which is sort of responds to. I think if we change it to gigi right now shell get it fast. and its so much CUTER and easy to sing. and she likes it. she told me.

Wednesday, July 23, 2008

Paper Lantern Finale Thursday

Non stop thunderstorms and the baby wont sleep so I havent had much either. Even Teddy here could use a few more hours cause the baby shakes and paces and likes thunder NOT SO MUCH and at this point neither do I. I have to wait until tomorrow and some sunlight anyway to take photos of the finished Lantern which came out pretty cool. I like paper things. Paper ships paper dolls a paper ocean. I want to live in 2 dimensions.

video love tomorrow afternoon babies

Monday, July 21, 2008

I want to save for this

That probably doesnt include airfare does it? no it doesnt. and doesnt include even the supplies for the class! ee gosh!
Now that kits are out and people are happy its time for the original Party Girl, the one who started it all, to find her new home. Will it be with you? What a wonderful way to learn mixed media but to gaze endless hours at the real thing!

Thursday, July 17, 2008

Pretty Pretty

* Whoever sent me the book LIFELINES there was no packing slip inside so I have no way of acknowledging you or sending you a thank you card! Give me a little shout as to who you are please.

Wee Wonderfuls

This store makes me want to embroider on my clothes! I have a brown tank top that I started
a little while ago. Im going to force myself to spend an hour today on it, embroidering a dragonfly and adding sequins. Just for a little time out time from writing the PDFs of which which I must finish one today. That is thee goal.

Tuesday, July 15, 2008

Paper Lantern Episode 1

This is what I am invisioning with my scrapbook pages. Might take a few weeks to finish but I like the idea.

Mixed Media Art Kits still available!

The artist I mentioned is Anahata Katkin

vet visit

because of Holly's heart murmur (never told to me but written on the rescue vets papers) and gingivitis, my vet believes she is more like 7 or 8.
which doesn't matter in the least i still would have gotten her. he gave me medicine for her ears, he said her breed is highly allergic.
she also apparently had an abscess at one time on her left eye because it looks a little damaged, he said this costs her no pain now (but did very much when she had it). now its just a scar.

poor poor little thing!

Video Is Coming Im nearly finished!!

Monday, July 14, 2008

class love

sometimes when we feel alone we just need to reach out to people and for me it works the best with other women. I LOVE my goddesses. they feed me when Im hungry and hold my head gently when Im tired.

ok. online classes are on and i will stick to it. Registration begins August 1st (my birthday is the 8th must think of something fab for that) and classes will begin the 17th or 18th, whichever is a monday. I have moments of doubt but you know, I just need to focus. I wont make as much art to sell for a few weeks which is scary but its ok. The class is important and will pay for the time Im taking away from making a weekly living now.

its all fear isnt it? what would we do if we knew in our guts that there was nothing to be afraid of?

Sunday, July 13, 2008

sketches and not all by me!

my head is a mess from the time i wake up until the time i go to sleep
and its not a terrible mess but its not a good mess either. my throat is drippy.
I need sunshine and quiet but there is not time for that when you tell yourself
you need to do big things and do them quickly. I long for vasts of time with no
responsibilities and whats funny is I create my life exactly how it is. I add my own
stress. It is no ones fault but mine. because there is so much I want to do. so very
much. you know? that I could do.

The online class thing is hard and giving me a headache.
so Im going to make the videos into dvds to sell instead.
easy easy something i already know how to do. I have them
outlined and ready to go. exactly how to teach you to make
a mixed media pretty girl on wood painting. yes. you order
the dvd then i send it to your house. what could be easier than
that. then, end of august, i begin working on my book for
Because its what I want a visual orgy of suzi book love.
but right now i have a sore throat again and I feel like I wont be able to finish anything.
Dont you hate that?
when you dont feel good that voice that is terribly mean and says YOU SUCK AND
YOULL NEVER BE ANYTING! when I am sick it seems that voice is louder than I am.

This sketch inspired from WICKED and done by DEEDEE

ill admit...i havent read since last week. ive come to the conclusion that i MUST get audio books, there is just no time to read. oh what a boring girl ive become.

Doesn't seem like much but we had to put the entire thing together which consists of 4 pieces. most of my stuff fits in there and I have it all ALL in bins or shoe boxes. I cannot put art supplies right on shelves because i can never see whats in the back. so bins work. Im going to glue pretty papers to the front of the shoe boxes and label the outside so I know whats inside. not rocket science, I know, but sometimes simple is not obvious. This sketch below is for this weeks commission. A mama and her daughter and brown tabby cat.

I feel BETTER yay!

Daddy Blu going to put together my organizer wall unit thingy today, as you can see I need it. Ive had the art supplies in the cellar and i bring them up when I need them but we know that doesnt work. I need them here within reach.

I think I will scrapbook outside today there's not much humidity. Take the pets and sit on the grass. I need to go to kinkos first and photo copy images to play with. Ill take still photos and show a hint of what I did tonight.

Here is the wonderful LIZ and her wonderful blond hair enjoying her suzi paintings and landscape love!

Saturday, July 12, 2008

Painting and Poochie!

Im a bit sick. My throat hurts. eh. Tomorrow I'm going to do nothing cept sketch for commissions and cuddle in bed. I'll probably be late with the video too. but Im starting to feel achy. I need to rest. as soon as Im better Ill be back with lots of video love!

Famiglia = Italian for Family

This painting on sale in my eTsy store!

Yeah Im a little behind on everything

I will post pics today i promise.
ducks in a row.
bought a thingy from target to organize my art supplies which stack on top of each other in a little corner in my room. Thingy needs to be assembled. Hope daddy Blu is in a good mood.

Wednesday, July 09, 2008

Holly Video Tomorrow

but in the meantime...Suzi News:

Monday, July 14th, at 8 pm PDT

You are invited to call in with your questions and thoughts for Suzi about women doing art for themselves, the Suziblu kit, or the meaning of life. The studio number is (530) 265-9555.
If you live in (smoky) northern California,
you can call toll free at 800-355-KVMR (5867).

What time will Suzi be talking in your town? Start with 8 pm Pacific, and add or subtract the amount for your time zone. For instance, the show will start at 11 pm Eastern time, 6 pm in Hawaii, and so on around the world.

Get ready now—go to and click on “Listen Live!” Or, for those of you in northern California, dial your radio to 89.5 FM or 105.1 FM. In outlying areas, you may receive better on your car radio—I can just imagine Suziblu fans all up and down the Sacramento valley, sitting in their cars with their cell phones on Monday night.

Questions? Email me at
KVMR: Music of the World, Voice of the Community

PS The FCC rules—please keep the language “family friendly” to protect my radio station’s license.

Monday, July 07, 2008

Scrapbook Sewing Party Kits Online Class LOVE

There is another video to follow that explains Party Girl Kits and Online classes. Im still editing and I'm moving thru water.....

Sunday, July 06, 2008

Holly Holly Holly!!!

Yay I get to adopt Holly!
I get her tuesday.
The other family that wanted her said they crate all their dogs
but Holly is just not that kind of baby!
she needs her person and constant love and
goo goo faces.
I will take her everywhere!

sue+holly=4 ever.

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Nice Eyebrows

mom wants me to let them 'grow more in the front' but then they look bushy bushy.
HEY! Wanna send me 20 seconds of a quicktime movie of YOU and or your PETS to put in tomorrow nights video? cmon be a star. It must be a QUICKTIME movie.

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Saturday, July 05, 2008

layout programs

Anyone use a layout program for publishing?
I want to know what I should buy and use.

Home visit went very well. Someone from the rescue was sent over and I think she liked us. Holly is in another state so she did not bring her. Now it is up to the foster mom to decide which family is best for the pup, so we sit and wait. I will tell you as soon as I know something.

Sewing love today <3

Friday, July 04, 2008

No Chat Today

Today is the home visit YAY! So this is the last stop in the rescue process and will determine whether they think Holly is right for our home or not MY gosh my heart! I know I said there would be a painting chat today but Im too fidgety to paint. and chat. I cant sit still. Im writing and journaling and working on my book (oh no did i say that out loud?) and also...working on an online class that will begin August 1st! Yes yes, Im committing to it. Im filming it next week. It will be a glorious glorious and Im excited. It is an 8 week class on how to make pretty mixed media girls.

so lots to do.
a little hint on the next video - sewing love

Its a Beautiful Day!

Thursday, July 03, 2008

Tuesday, July 01, 2008

Holly Golightly Update!

Finally talked to the foster mom after my vet reference checked out. OH I LOVE THIS PUP!
Poor thing! She is 3 years old and was neglected. they had to remove 6 teeth. they just spayed her and fixed a hernia she had as well, so shes been thru hell. She is loving and wants to snuggle with you all day long. She is fine with other dogs and cats around and doesnt pay much attention to them. She is afraid of things like swiffers when they fall POOR BABY! She needs love even more than I imagined. Because of her teeth she has a half smile. She eats wet food and dry food now and i cant wait to give her yummy boiled chicken.

This is it, I mean, this is the best part of life. To show a being who has been treated so poorly and to treat them like they are a God. I still have to go through a home visit to make sure I am who I say I am and that the environment is safe but then I can go get her. I have to drive into another state for her but I picked up a cheap GPS on eBay. This little baby just wants to lay about with her owner all day and that is what I plan to give her.
I want to give her everything. Everything everything everything. If I get her she will be my little shining STAR!