Friday, May 02, 2008
I hate today. today sucks.
Did ya ever feel that sickening feeling in your stomach when you try hard so hard and people don't believe you? Believe you love them, and when things become confusing they think the worst and do not trust do not trust you do not trust that you would never hurt them were not thinking of hurting them would never dream of hurting them?
This is the worst part of life. Being misunderstood. In that instant they've closed their heart and I am behind a wall. alone.
I have 2 paintings to do today and that will put me in a better mood. Art saves me. When I want to run and disappear I disappear through paint and brushes and wax and layers and suddenly things make sense. Painting will always be here for me. Will always be waiting. Will always know my heart holds for it only my best intentions. People though, people aren't as easy to convince.
If no one has told you they loved you today
I. Love. You.