We are no different, Ive done the same things as you. even last summer when I couldnt get my faces just like I wanted to, and the pupils were still a bit googly, but Id sell paintings anyway and feel like a fraud. Its our self esteem. that is the root problem. we think naaa, nothing good could ever come from me, and we believe it deeply. mine stemmed from my parents who think of me only as a fuck up. but I take on the voice from there. so its a habit. im used to putting myself down. but its a learned pattern. and you can quit it. but you must be vigilant. fuck art school. I went but didnt graduate. who cares. when you are 6 feet under it will not benefit you for having that degree. just live. just paint. procrastination is just another word for fear. we put off because we are afraid we wont be able to do it well, or something like that. like the negative voices in our head we deal with procrastination the same way - just do it do it fast and faster than the negative thoughts so that you cant hear them. procrastination is also our self loathing. we think we dont deserve peace so we cause chaos. I do it ALL the time. but im trying not to. its all self love. i honestly believe that. feeling critical of art is a symptom of a much bigger problem for if we truly believed we deserved peace, love, fun, etc...we wouldn't expect ourselves to be perfect at everything. we wouldnt judge our awkward moments as proof as who we are.