Movie for tonight is Lady In The Water. Pooh will sit under the heat lamp like he does. He ate a little today of the fancy feast, at least he likes that but not nearly enough to be a meal. Ill see how he does tomorrow and when I pick up the fluids Ill talk to the doctor. This is another reason I cant wait to get to Virginia, I dont want to go thru this alone. I dont want to go through anything alone anymore.
So I heard there was a rolled up 20 on the floor and so theres that, which is good cause I can write him off as a coke head and not be sad. being sad sucks. crying sucks. Im done with it. Lets be mad at him instead. Helena Christiansen was interviewed saying she was supposed to see him that day and WHY IS THIS CHICK involved with everyone who eventually dies young? Like Michael Hutchence for instance. Remind me never to sleep with her.
But Im still sad. Look how we think someone beautiful and talented and smart has it all together. They dont. We are all equal. Running around without our heads trying to do it all so that we will have enough fill in the blank to make us happy. All the while your life just keeps going and eventually your body says fk it I cant keep up with you. No one has it all together and even if they do - their body is slowly falling apart. So there is that.