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Join the community and post your journal pages - or just meet other students in the class at:
Posted by suzi blu at 4:50 PM
Posted by suzi blu at 5:32 AM
I didn't have a lot of time to make it fancy but I made everyone a discussion board for my online journaling videos. Go here to post weekly journal pages, talk with classmates, gain inspiration, and support each other emotionally as we all work on this process.
I think this is going to be very very kewl.
oh and i now have waffles.
My lovely goddess journalers that I adore,
So! next week I will have pages up on my site with WRITTEN instructions and links to materials, that kind of thing, because at the moment I know my videos aren't very long and I can put more information there. Videos cant be much longer than 5 minutes but even right now that is a dream because I go up to 100MB (the youtube limit) in 2 minutes. Its all an adventure in figuring it out and it might take a bit but I am a pretty determined girl.
So there will be pages to look at with each assignment and pages for me to put up STUDENT ART and give out gold stars to all my goddess who try! I also want to put up a page of buyers of my art with my paintings hanging in their living room. I think that would be a kewl thing to do.
Its great isn't it? The mixing of artists and strangers and collectors and getting everyone together to MAKE STUFF. Its beautiful beautiful. I cant wait to do more.
I will put more effort into the next video I promise. I didnt realize so many people would be into it. But now that they are Im getting more ideas! I think next week will be good. We are going to move on from basics into a real assignment. Now that we are all on the same page so to speak, and non journalers realize they can do this too...lets do STUFF!
I know your busy making your pockets but for next week all you will need is paint. whatever kind - doesnt matter. we are going to paint, my little neurotic goddesses, (if youre a guy its ok, be a guy, but realize you are among divine journalers here). Even if you have never painted before it doesnt matter. you will love it. you will paint with abandon. You will paint as if you are 5 years old and LOVE THE WORLD and trust the world and never could never imagine that anything that could come from you would be bad. not ever ever.
so yeah, Im excited.
Time for cereal and then bed.
My favorite cereal you ask?
VIVE, from Kashi.
Its got 12 grams of fiber!
a healthy colon is a happy colon. remember that.
much love and light,
Posted by suzi blu at 9:04 PM
Hopefully this problem will be fixed soon. A friend of mine runs my site because I know nothing about servers and things...just how to upload pics and video...but he seems to be MIA. So perhaps its time I learned more about websites. OH bOy. just what I need now right, to start up an entirely new venture.
Posted by suzi blu at 1:14 PM
Do you get angry at this too?
This is what I have to do today:
write over notes from last week
research language disabilities
Read 30 pages of Marriage and family
And today is a sunday, but this is not what Im mad at. 5 classes, an internship, making art to sell and starting a video art instruction show. This is 7 days a week, look how much I would loose if I took 'sunday off'. There is no off time if you want to be a full time artist PLUS keep your dayjob (bcz eating is nice). Non artists do not understand. They dont understand putting art above leisure and social activities. Or how paintings are company
and so are the stars and the leaves outside the window, and pooh sleeping quietly in the corner.
I do not know how those who in relationships do it. I have nothing to give another person in that respect. I mean, I have lots to give a friend. I have everything. I have myself. my whole entire self. But this entitlement in the romantic relationship...how they feel you owe them time. Big blocks of space because they need your undivided attention. I dont have that. I have an hour. I have time to listen to you with full attention, to have tea or pizza. to hold your hand and listen to whatever is going on. but then I have to go back to work. I have to figure out math problems and dream up new colors for fall.
But with the people in my life its all or nothing. They think Im blowing them off or how could I be too busy for them? No one sees how mUch I have to give because it does not look like the way they think I should be to them. And no one, no one, wants to accomodate my new schedule.
I long for company in which I could do my thing and yet I dont have to entertain you. How your best friend is the one who is content to just be there, breathing the same air. Or giving a quick kiss and a yoohoo. Holding you while you read your text book.
I dont have that and its probably okay. Its definitely okay. So much is happening now. I am on the edge of living the life Ive always wanted. And it has nothing to do with how Ive done it before. Its giving everything I have and expecting nothing in return. Its making art as if my life depended on it, and being there for all the people who have just bought their journals. You are afraid to mess up the pages. Its a metaphor for messing up your life you know. That fear of mistakes. and how I want to give them a place where fear does not live.
I am not giving that up for anyone.
At this point its either come with me, or get out of the way, right?
And it seems to me even though I feel very alone here in the studio apartment this sunday ( I always get like this on sundays I dont know why) with the fan blowing and my To Do list glaring at me, I know that all of this is very important. That there are real lives out there to touch even though I cant feel them through the screen. and it sounds so melodramatic I know but thats what Im here for.
Sorry to be sad. My video will be happy because I have much to show you. Its nearly 9 am so let me get going on the mundane things on my list so I can hurry up and get to the good stuff.
see you later
love and kisses,
Thank YOU to everyone whos doing the art journals. Yay! Its like I have dozens of new playmates. I have zero art friends where I live and LONG for people to play with and be myself with and who dont mind that im messy and nutty, and now I have you, my little art journal friends! Shhh...it'll just be us. You and me. Under the sheets with crayons and flashlights and our journal books. We can tell each other the biggest stories ever! and I will always believe they are true. I promise.
I am so happy bcz I found frozen burrittos with natural ingrediants and this solves my food problem for a little while. I often hit on something I like then eat nothing but that until I cant stand the site of it anymore. I like to compare this trait to Albert Einstein who didnt want to waste time picking out clothes to wear and instead had dozens of the same suit hanging in his closet. I too dont want to waste time...oh, my dear, what will I eat?
I have organic oatmeal raisin cookies and soy milk and a girly movie to watch. Im actually going to watch tv! Its been weeks. I dont have many paintings up I know, SADISTICS has been kicking my ass. But I have 2 paintings ready to go and will release the first tomorrow. I love tomorrows painting so much I am tempted to keep it at home but alas, I want to be a working artist. I get to live with it for a little while until its hopefully sold, and then I get to make another. And Monday will be another episode of how to make an art journal, this time using eyelets and power tools! I have math class at noon I will try to upload before that.
I moved my bed under the window so now I can sleep under the stars. Well, there is a big tree in the way but still, its sort of like sleeping in a tree house. With all the morning air coming in and hitting poohs and my face. Ive decided Im never going to make my bed. ever. Pooh likes it this way. Creamy soft pillows and blankets and cool breezes. I could stay in bed forever.
Im never going to breeze thru statistics like I can with my other classes cause it goes vEry fast and is vEry hard. And so I pet the cat and dawdle and still my math book does not open! What is wrong with me? So right now Im going to paint and tomorrow, oh tomorrow, will be math. I swear.
Posted by suzi blu at 10:38 AM
I must hurry up and get to the math tutor, first buy a calculator, then math, then hurry hurry here and paint and make a video. no talking just the painting! Like johnney smooth. I love that guy.
I will be back!
I know I need to pay the electric bill, and I will.
But there is enough left over to buy pooh a bed today.
something of his own.
Normally I wash soft blankets and things but
he needs a SPACE.
a pooh corner.
something plush and extravagant.
after my homework Im going to pet depot!
The awesome TODD has just reminded me of Lemony Snicket's, the movie, do you remember? And he deciphered the imagery so well it makes me want to crawl into bed right now and dream dream dream. And I get my own imagery as well, this gritty darkness, the antiqued, old papers...and stained wood edges, the rusty metal. OMG it makes so much sense. These are things falling apart, like our societal utopia is falling apart. Russia has a new bomb. Fear, an uncertain future. No warmth, no safe place left to go. Like the children in the movie, no one is taking care of us! But yet AH BUT YET...there is bright colors, in my paintings, in the patterns, underneath the grit, shiny powders of light shining through! There is hope. STILL! There is hope. and there is goodness and there is beauty. But yet we do not deny we are stuck in the middle of all the miserable things.
I could probably die content now but I dont want to.
Other movies that remind me of this, the first that comes to mind is JAMES AND THE GIANT PEACH...that was a juxtapoz of metal and frailty. dark and light together. ooh ooh oooh I wish I didnt have statistics and so much homework tomorrow. I simply cannot paint until friday afternoon BOO ON THAT.
Wax too. How artists like me use wax, and how its so gentle and frail against the gritty muddy colors. how you can see thru the wax, into text written way underneath - like memories long ago forgotten, but recorded! They are still there. In some things, there is continuity, stablility. Maybe thats why we all feel the need to write it all down...scrapbooking even. More than just photos of birthdays, we are making the lineage tangible.
must go to bed.
oh the dreams tonight!
My DVD burning is not burning or DVDing or anything it is supposed to do. Instead, it blinks a blue light then shuts off. The result is that I wont be able to sell the making of a painting video along with paintings until I fix it.
so in the meantime...Im still going to upload new videos every monday but I was thinking instead of making them How To videos...starting with how to keep a creative journal. More than just sell art I want to make other people inspired to go make art, expecially people who fear they are non-creative. I say BAH to that. When you were five years old you had construction paper and crayons and you ruled the world. rememer?
so this will be fun. Stay tuned monday evening for a look at what is an art journal and how much fun it is to keep one. I may post two videos a week on this but we will see how my classes go and if this is possible. There will be at least one though for sure.
Since every weekend I am editing up until the last minute, why not just show video on monday night instead? Although Sunday night is the best ebay day to release things, its just better for me to have sunday night to complete editing. Id rather make a better project then rush rush to get it out before 8pm.
so from now on!! Video on Mondays. yay!
I hope you dig the music on this one.