Sunday, October 21, 2007



Yay the weekend is over. I survived it by painting all day. I now have carpel tunnel but its a good pain. Can you see I spelled yOUre wrong? ha. I have to fix that. I am not sad today. Its just a tired/saturday night thing. Its good though, it shows me the areas in my life that need work. where I feel empty is where I need to devote some attention. A girl cant be an island alone! You can appreciate life all you want but you need friends to share it with I dont care how enlightened you are. and its true, I dont have any chicks in my real life. I know some dudes, but its not nearly the same. and as much as the dudes dont understand. I am girls kind of girl. and its been a long time since I had a real best friend. long long. long long time. and why should I be without that? i dont care about marriages and baby showers and buying a bigger SUV which, unfortunatley, is what the women talk about that I have met. so I just dont try.

I will just keep doing what Im doing and have faith that opportunities will appear. Perhaps if I get to mOve out of this tiny tiny cloistered apartment and onto a FARM oh my mood would lift. I know good things will come. I will keep my heart open to their possibility.

making yams and carrots. i have no idea how to cook. ha.


Ellen Lyn said...

Hi Suzi!!
Love your blog/vlog....found a journal video of yours that a friend of mine was touting on her blog and had to check it out--now I've seen them all and some of your club members too! LOVE IT!! I started journaling last week and have had a blast! For some reason I have always been too scared to really get going but it's ON now! Thanks much for being so much fun!!!! I'd love to be chicks with you IRL but I think we are just too geographically challenged.....

Christine Drevo said...

Hey Suzi,

Glad to hear that you are out of your funk. You are totally awesome, you have no idea how working on art journals has lead me to expressing myself and feelings I never new I had.

I am hoping that you and I can become really good friends in the months to come; I know that you can teach me to really search myself and let my creative genius out!

Thank you,

red tin heart said...

suzi, good things will happen. you are so neat i know you will find a best friend, you deserve one. you are one of the most creative people i have ever seen. and very sweet. xoxo nita

Jonna Barnett said...

Oh Suzi, my heart goes out to you. You sound a lot like my daughter. It has been a very long time since she has had a really close girl friend or any sort of 'good' girl friend in a while. She also has different priorities than marriage, babies and SUV's :). I love your video's and blog, hang in there good things are coming your way.

staceyfike said...

your stuff is awesome!! sorry your feeling alone, take comfort in all of your online friends/ are not alone :)

changapeluda said...

What club?
You got members???


Renee said...

"i dont care about marriages and baby showers and buying a bigger SUV which, unfortunatley, is what the women talk about that I have met. so I just dont try."

Wow Suz... I feel that exact same way. At least now I know I'm not alone.



Seeking Simplicity said...

Yams and carrots together? Wow... now that would be orange.

I dig the painting... the colors sort of grab me.

Have a super Monday.... yipee... I'm taking the day off... now that is the way to start a week.

AngC said...

Hi Suzi!
LOVE, LOVE, LOVE your blog!! It has totally inspired me... started my own journal today and have been having so much fun. Thankyou for the inspiration!


Lisa S. Oceandreamer said...

I know good things will come. I will keep my heart open to their possibility.
Have you ever done a visualization board? Pictures of good friends laughing and of farms....a nice cottage with room to paint....and so on. All things you may seek for your happiness that you can look at daily. And as you do....act as though you already have all those things. The Universe is listening!!

Brahdelt said...

That's the right attitude! *^v^*
Keep your heart open and the changes will come, even if you're still in your tiny apartment (I truly hope so, because I'm also in a tiny flat so this hope also covers my life, we could start a Crafty Girls in the Tiny Apartments Society, or something... *^v^*)
And for the carpal tunnel - I've been there! Keep your wrist warm, wear a wool wristwarmer or tie a small scarf around it.

Julie said...

Hi Suzi,
Wow, I'm glad I'm not the only one who can't find a girlfriend. Sometimes I think I'm a freak because I don't really relate to so many other women. For a while I was "courting" some girls but inevitably we didn't have a connection. *sigh*

I love my husband and we have fun together but I want a girlfriend, dammit!

Unrelated question: Do you have any plans to do a wax tutorial? I know that's really not what you do with your videos but I just have no idea how it works and I love the way it looks. I'm just afraid I'm going to end up scarred.

+Nix+ said...

A farm YES!with apple orchards and a lake.

+Nix+ said...

oh and on the cooking thing, its like art you just try a bit of this a bit of that, bright colours and beautiful aromas. Recipes just being a guide, you add what you want and leave out things if you don't like them and just keep practicing. I love cooking so am lucky on this front. Though I am by no means great and you really need to get to know how a stove and a pan work together. Much like your hands and a brush.

Also a wax tutorial as mentioned above would be great. Not even a tutorial just in a video when you are doing it. ' oh you just heat this and apply that, simple' :D

I sent you a card to your email, not sure if you got it, I hope so.

Hélène Deroubaix said...

I understand and can relate to this
I am a girl kind of girl:-)
and I am rather a loner because it's not easy to find soul sisters around here:)
maybe I am also difficult in the friends I choose;)
but this year I have found a real Best friend, she may be miles away I know she always understand and can share with me
we often synchro so when there is silence we know how the other feels.
I think it could be great to have a friend to hang out with but I am so grateful I have found her that I don't feel that alone anymore!

I don't care about wedding but I care about babies and I am also sure that women who are mothers are not only mothers and talking babies all the time;)

Yes keep faith!
that's what I did and I kept myself open to possibilities, to new bonds( my heart had been ripped by some girls passionate friendship that had been aborted :()

I know it may not cheer you up lots but here you have many friends, many possibilites of creating lasting bonds and sharing:)

sending you hugs and your feelings are surely linked to autumn and cold weather coming as for carpel tunnel, well because of the cold my fingers get achy and swollen and itchy too :(((( it s awful!
I have to be careful for in 2005 I had my fingers totally blocked o_O and I could not paint or write for a month!!!!! the pain!!!

well dear ,lots of Empathy,carebear smiles and of course you're not alone on your Poetic terrorism Island ^_^I'm in and all the other warrior of the lights will join

Blessings to you***


Fledgling Poet said...

Suzi, I would give anything in the world to have you as my neighbor and friend...!! You are the type of neighbor I dream of but can never find in this suburban place I live in. I'm glad you're feeling in better spirits -- have a good Monday. :~)

Dave said...

The farm life would be for you! Great painting I loved it!

sugarcreekstuff said...

I have a mini farm and highly recomend it. You need an equally nutty friend (I mean that in a good way). If only I lived closer.

Ro Bruhn said...

Another fabulous painting Suzi. My daughter wanted to work with animals, so she did some volunteer work at a wild life sanctuary, after a couple of years and a few courses, she's now working full time as a ranger and getting paid.
If you're really keen maybe you could do volunteer work on a farm at the weekends, just a thought

Roben-Marie said...

Just found your blog! I love it! This piece is beautiful! Thanks for sharing! RM :)